so my dad’s friend was bartending and saw a guy put something in a girl’s drink so while the guy turned around he switched their drinks and watched the guy roofie himself.
Ever since I can remember I’ve always been real afraid of time passing by. As a kid, the moodiest day of the year was my birthday because even before I could put it into fancy words, I hated knowing that I was growing older.
I keep setting these goals in my head for myself. Accomplish this before 20, that before 23, etc. And although setting goals isn’t a bad thing, I’ve been exhausting myself. I can’t seem to enjoy the present because I’m so consumed about making the future happen a certain way. But I can’t snap out of it. I can’t just “go with the flow.” Now of course I know that this isn’t in my control, you know, the future. But let’s just say that I’m paranoid. And time… It passes by so fast. I feel like it was my 19th birthday just a few weeks ago. But it’s been 5 months. Where did they go? Will I accomplish that goal I have in my head before 20? If I didn’t feel these past 5 months pass me by, maybe the rest will pass the same and nothing will change.
I need change though. If I want to get anywhere in life, this change must happen now. I have 7 months.